i was just thinking...

when i first joined fb, i was informed by a fb friend that this was just for fun things, nothing serious, like how you feel. i've had my share of fun.

but i also found a way to express feelings, in particular how this country is really going to hell in a handbasket. How much i want justice, peace and harmony. how screwed up our priorities are. how the party of No is out for themselves and no one else. Not even those who voted them into office.

every ideal and value I held sacred, because my parents taught me there were such things, are no longer in existence or for sale. sadly, i believe our president is no more than a tool for those who really run this country now. How can this man think about cutting back entitlements, never mind say it aloud in public.
we earned that money. i don't see anyone in the House or Senate giving up the perks they passed laws to provide for themselves. Obama gave up what, 10% of his salary as a symbolic gesture. How will they ever survive on $360K? He's already a millionaire. But for for the rest of us, we're on our own. who out there has a pension to look forward to in the 21st century?

how about cutting our defense budget by 1 or 2 trillion dollars so we can retire on what we paid into Social Security. let's feed, clothe and shelter those less fortunate. let's put people back to work so they can regain their pride and motivation. Cutting entitlements is not the way to go. Obama, get a backbone. It's long past time for you to just say no. Prove to us you are truly the agent of change you sold us. You have nothing to lose now.

but that's just the tip. towards the end of April, it dawned on me that Stacey had been gone almost 11 months. May & June were always busy months in this household. Mothers Day and Stacey's birthday (she would have been 46 on tuesday), our wedding anniversary, Fathers Day and then my birthday all fell into a period of 4 or 5 weeks. It kept us busy and me worrying about how we'd pay for all those occasions. it's an odd feeling that Mother's Day is tomorrow and there is no Mother here, and no birthday celebration forthcoming.

i fell into a funk, thinking about the past 11 months, what the future holds for us all, in particular my children.

but we're still here. My son is getting one more opportunity to stay in school. Maybe this will help him hit his stride. My daughter is rocking the world. look out, here she comes. my kids dealt with a lot over the past 7 plus years. Thankfully they have big love in their hearts. may that never change. may they never become bitter, cynical and jaded.

i believe everything happens for a reason. For all the bitching, whining and complaining, I'm an incredibly lucky person. i have to believe that we can make a difference in this world by doing the right thing and treating others like fellow human beings, no more, no less. respect all life, because life in short.

i believe that if you wake up in the morning, it's a good day. make the most of it (easy to say), because you never know when your number will come up. if you try something and it doesn't work, find another way. Make the most of what you have. Enjoy the fact that you have it, whatever it is.

if you made it this far, i love you and wish you and yours the very best. love your families & your friends, they'll always love you back. keep things in perspective, don't forget or lose sight of what's important. don't ever take anything for granted, because whatever it is, it may not come around again.